Few days back I thought abt writing something different....like a letter from a subhro to another subhro.Both are same person yet so different. I just wanted to write that in the following way..
Dear Subhro,
Hope you are doing well in your life there. If you are not, then at least try. I seldom think about you because I really dont enjoy thinking about you. May be because of the fact that you are too busy to care about or value my thoughts or I am too busy to think about you, as you know I prefer to feel the solitude and the beauties of nature rather than your earthly matters. You know they will come and go but my solitude will stay with me throughout all my life along with all the beauties of nature. You know few hours back i was standing at the bridge by the lake, under the moon. This place used to be your favourite spot years back. I was feeling the solitude and peace inside me. I saw the dark horizon was trying to touch the deep blue water & the moon was trying to shine the water. Though the moon succeeded but you know the horizon failed to touch the water. Something was preventing it. What?? I actually dont know. I was trying to figure that out. I failed. I am not like you, I dont get the taste of success that you get frequently. But I dont feel bad about it, I feel I am doing well.
You know today I saw myself standing in front of the water and I dont even have to close my eyes to see my self. Can you see yourself like that? I think you have forgotten how to do that. I cant teach you because I think you have forgotten a lot of things along with that. I came to know that you are loosing your temper more frequently that you used to when you was here. Thats pretty bad subhro. What is making you angry? Do you miss this place or you are loosing your control over your thoughts? You can come here some times if you want. But do you really want that? do you really know what you want? I am happy because I know what i want, I am happy because i can control my thoughts & I am happy to live in the place where I really belong.
Few days back I saw a strange dream. I saw i went back in a time when we were together. In a time when we used to feel & think together. I saw ourselves playing in the small field of that Angel Day School during lunch time. I saw some of our friends too. And i saw grand father brought tiffin for the little one. Can you remember those days? The house of your grandfather & grand mother? I dont think so, If you could then you would have been as happy as I am.
If you come here some day I will take you to some place you might like you can try to find few memories from you over loaded mind. But for now..
Shhhh... dont say a word..just let me feel..
The joy..the pain..and every second of solitude ...
Dont talk.. let my face glow by the light of moon..
As I am waiting..... to be free ..to be drenched in the rain...
Too much memories, too much thoughts..
Do I worth it all , Do I love it all?
Forget about every thing..forget about past..
Just let my face glow in the moon..and my soul by love..
Bye
Take care
Subhro
Hope you are doing well in your life there. If you are not, then at least try. I seldom think about you because I really dont enjoy thinking about you. May be because of the fact that you are too busy to care about or value my thoughts or I am too busy to think about you, as you know I prefer to feel the solitude and the beauties of nature rather than your earthly matters. You know they will come and go but my solitude will stay with me throughout all my life along with all the beauties of nature. You know few hours back i was standing at the bridge by the lake, under the moon. This place used to be your favourite spot years back. I was feeling the solitude and peace inside me. I saw the dark horizon was trying to touch the deep blue water & the moon was trying to shine the water. Though the moon succeeded but you know the horizon failed to touch the water. Something was preventing it. What?? I actually dont know. I was trying to figure that out. I failed. I am not like you, I dont get the taste of success that you get frequently. But I dont feel bad about it, I feel I am doing well.Few days back I saw a strange dream. I saw i went back in a time when we were together. In a time when we used to feel & think together. I saw ourselves playing in the small field of that Angel Day School during lunch time. I saw some of our friends too. And i saw grand father brought tiffin for the little one. Can you remember those days? The house of your grandfather & grand mother? I dont think so, If you could then you would have been as happy as I am.
If you come here some day I will take you to some place you might like you can try to find few memories from you over loaded mind. But for now..
Shhhh... dont say a word..just let me feel..
The joy..the pain..and every second of solitude ...
Dont talk.. let my face glow by the light of moon..
As I am waiting..... to be free ..to be drenched in the rain...
Too much memories, too much thoughts..
Do I worth it all , Do I love it all?
Forget about every thing..forget about past..
Just let my face glow in the moon..and my soul by love..
Bye
Take care
Subhro
